But I am just so sick of being ignored by everyone. Am I doing something wrong? No, WHAT am I doing wrong? It's a real kick in the self worth when even someone who you thought wanted to talk to you blanks you. Fuck it, fuck them, fuck everybody.

What a fantastic weekend. Beautiful weather, spending time with my family. Having a nice BBQ with home-made burgers yesterday and today an excellent roast chicken salad today. My niece cracks me up, we bought her a little padding pool and she was loving it. If only all weekends could be as nice as this one. Hope that it's going to be like this for ( Read more... )

Saw Lostprophets last night, fucking amazing gig. A rocking crowd. I'm still fucked.

Been feeling mixed all day, came home from work and dozed infront of the computer. Had a horrible dream.

Found an old friend.

It's been a good day.

I've tried going to sleep but my brain is wide awake. Too much shit going around my head. Had a nice week off last week apart from my car breaking down outside the NIA. Work is quiet. Things are looking especially great but I should be alright for the time being ( Read more... )

Oh god why can't I sleep.

We are building up a new world ( Read more... )

I wish it would stop raining for a week. Spring is rapidly running out and I would love to go out and take some photos. The pinkbells we have in our garden are already turning to seed. They really don't like the rain, they were out over a month last year but now it's barely been two weeks. Next year will have to do ( Read more... )

12 hours sleep later and I am not sure what the hell is going on. I feel like I've slept for a week. Nothing really makes sense at the moment and up and down are mixed up.

Work is going to suck today.

I no longer have any reason to stay up there, I shall be quitting in April. I don't care if I haven't got a job to go to afterward. I think that I shall just enjoy it as a nice break.

My new car nearly blew itself up but luckily it's only turning out to be a

It's been 10 years ago today since my grandad died I found out. I usually go over my mothers for dinner on Wednesdays but we went over my grans instead. I didn't even know until she mentioned it. I knew it was shortly after my sisters birthday because the last time I saw him was when they came around to drop off her present ( Read more... )