my, i'm bloggin here again... hahaha.. whatever... go this link:

CUTEZJOEY.BLOGSPOT.COM

my blog.....

don't really want to write, no use really, but what can i do, i'm bored.. this guy, alex, sent me a msg a few days ago, of course, it's only a few replies since then, but i'm sensing something good coming ( Read more... )

here i am again, *sigh* this is boring... i hate blogspot.. it sucks like fuck... oh well.. talk later..

hummm, i need to write ( Read more... )

hmmm, time to update this...nothing much happen really, this week has been a fucking hell to me, not that bad though, i was just tired of the cheerleading stuff i did... *yawn.

nvmm i update later...

hmmm, you know what? forget that last entry, i'm notgoing to kill myelf, even though now i'm quite fucked up, i'm sick. my temperature is 38.8 i'm dying.. hmmm, i should see a doctor, my condition is very bad..i don't know how i get this, *sigh* oh well..

i don't know what is my reason here, what is my purpose here. i had the urge to kill myself, i don't know how many times. well, until i actually know someone. i told myself, let's give this fucking life another chance. and i did. even after i know him better, i still wanted to let myself go, but i held back. now, it just a matter of time, and place ( Read more... )

hmmm, what should i say, it's really frustating these days, with the exam coming, i'm damn tired, and i felt like sleeping, and i also feel loved, and worried, damn i'm so confused. i don't think my mind can handle all of this things all at once, this is kinda frightening even.

um, well, i need to do a lot now, to change me, i guess that'll need

i don't know if i'm doing the right thing or if i'm doing it wrong, but people should know when to stop ( Read more... )

i know there is ups and downs in life, but i never knew that something so fucking simple could hurt me like this ( Read more... )