Okay, I think i need to get something off my chest. I have had these feelings, and i know they are wrong. very wrong. Okay I saw tom today. big whoop right. Well for some reason it brought back terrible memories that i don't even want to remeber. And every time i see him i think of the last thing he said to me...Im not going to go into iit right ( Read more... )

Hi all, I haven't written in a while so i thought i would catch everybody up. My sister got engaged~which is exciting haha, but according to my brother he she has turned into a bridezilla. I can't remeber if i wrote this in any other entry because im losing my mind but hey Its important.  I played at Jamie's wedding a few weeks ago. Although highly ( Read more... )

in a few words....really pissed...dont talk to me unless you have one nice word to say....

Hi all...Just gor back from outer banks North Carolina. It was fun and stuff. Now i am just really cranky on acount that i didnt get an ounce of sleep and i am just not happy with some people who shall remain nameless. I am glad the Outer banks thing went alright that i was able to hang out with the two older girls who are a little younger than I ( Read more... )

Hi All!
   So today is quite a boring day but not really becuase I have tons of work to do. I am getting ready to go on vacation so i have to pack and get myself ready to go away for a week. I think i may bring my laptop but we'll see. It has been two months since me and Tom broke up. It went by quick. Things are definately different between us, But ( Read more... )

Everything is alright now. I finished my tantrum and everything i just need a break from everything. But the good thing is that I don't have work tomorrow, and I can pretty much just relax. I have just had a really stressful week. I mean...this panic thing doesn't help either. I try not to i really do. But you know, sometimes things just happen. I ( Read more... )

        If you only knew how upset I am you would understand why. I was planning on an enjoyable evening with my Family and see my brother graduate from 8th grade. Each student only recieved four tickets. There are six people in my family but my brother was unable to attend. That leaves us with me, my sister, my mom and my dad. No problem right? ( Read more... )

Well, I have two things to say. one is that my performacnce whent off without a hitch. Another thing i wanted to say was that i saw him today for the first time sinse everything happened....that on the other hand did not go so smoothily....lets just call it salt on an open wound....Its oaky other fish in the sea right...well anyway im off to eat ( Read more... )

Okay, im not in the best mood right now...then again when i write in this thing im usually not. I don't know. I just feel like crying. Im tired, and i just want someone to tell me everything will turn out alright. The littlest things are bothering me, and i just don't know if i can handle having anxiety attacks anymore. I want to be able to be like ( Read more... )

First off I'd like to say Happy 50th Birthday to my dad! Anyway today my parents are going to a wedding so i have the house to myself. I realized alot of stuff over the weekened and i am feeling a lot better about myself. Sadly i had to quit taking violin lessons because it became too much money for me. Thats the hardest part about not having a lot ( Read more... )