i guess there is something inside of me that misses this. recording my entire life via the internet. i return to school tomorrow. i feel all these strange butterflies, even though i know these people now and they are not anything special. i guess ill have a hell of a story to tell though ( Read more... )

ive been gone for little over a month. and well, i just hope the next seven fly faster than this has ( Read more... )

were moving.

so im listening to the soundtrack of moulin rouge. and remembering why i always loved it so much. its probably been at least a year since i heard it last. sometimes life seems so disappointing that you forget the reason you trudge through...or at least my reasoning ( Read more... )

i was ten feet from the bus this morning when i got the inclination to turn around and run for my life. its only the fourth day of school, and senioritis has me by the throat, which is quite literally sore from the night before. my mother and i clashed for three hours until i buried my head underneath a pillow and hoped to pass out ( Read more... )

looks like i can do little to stop it. change can be promising ( Read more... )

i have not updated in an extremely long time.  i have been thinking and thinking and thinking, throughout my demanding work scheduhle and all the time spent trying to escape the fact that i have a lot to say and no one to say it to, but ultimately i decided that im pulling out of my social life for no apparant reason. i feel more and more the need ( Read more... )

good bye target. and my seven dollar an hour, crappy cashiering job.

hello panera. my slightly more exciting, slightly higher paying restaraunt job!

im excited. but i have a whole nother bag of issues to sort through today.

funnnn.

my mother has this picture of me on her nightstand that she placed face down this morning after i refused to go to church with her and my dad. i know refusing god devestates her, but then again, most of my decisions do ( Read more... )

surely one more moment couldnt break my heart ( Read more... )