i went outside tonight with the intention of climbing my house to sit on the roof but it is all frozen with snow and ice so i couldn't. but i did take a walk and listened to the postal service and smoked a cigarette. I dont even really smoke anymore but i wanted to tonight while i walked and i enjoyed it alot. I have been really apathetic about ( Read more... )

sweet chilled wind this friday evening. Tonight I have nothing to accomplish until i speak with Amber and meet her at Brian's house this evening. We are going to drink together and catch up on each others lives since we haven't spent alot of time together since last semester started. I am looking forward to enjoying both Amber and Brian's company ( Read more... )

What to do this moment,
consumed by the heat of the king demon head in hell.

Submission to the twisting waves,
birth in my skull,
dark gods and colored light.

subsiding rains,
a walk in the cold to a running car.

the ecstasy of an orgasm,
at one o'clock,
on a rainy sunday afternoon.

im not sure if its this new relationship that is causing my stress, or i could be that i have started to care what someone thinks about me and all of the sudden it makes me a wreck. or at least this week since things became official. I was afraid that the moment it became a "relationship" that i would freak out. Anyways i have to get going as the ( Read more... )

so what do i really say about this time.

first time in a relationship that has lasted for more than a month, something official that isn't detrimental to my happiness.

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good things.

i haven't been writing much lately in a personal medium at least. i have been writing at least one paper a week the last few weeks but unfortunately they have been reviews for plays that i had to see for my art of theater class and i have been purposely writing them as if I adored the plays i was reading (which sometimes i did) regardless of what ( Read more... )

phew. i just got done writing a paper for my college writing about how existentialist philosophy applies to all people and all things involving humanity in general. I need to read a play now and I will have all of my work done until next tuesday when I have to have seen Urinetown and written a review of it ( Read more... )

So first off i just purchased a mac I have become a huge fanboy of their hardware and software as well ( Read more... )

this is good.

this song is mine and i am like it.
i bend, i play responding triplets.
i am the natural

Thinking with Portals ( Read more... )