Had a bizarre dream that wildlife started appearing in the house. Was a weird back-story in my mind that this would happen every year for some reason. First, it was birds in my room. Then, there were a couple of little snakes on the hallway wall. When I looked down further on the hallway wall, I could see a whole tangle of huge snakes. Halle kept ( Read more... )

I think I have figured out the root of many of my problems. I am a perfectionist, but at the same time I have an extraordinarily low self esteem. Does not make for a pretty picture. Started taking St. John's Wort today to help alieve a bit of stress and anxiety, know it is not a cure all, just may take the edge off a little bit of the seething ( Read more... )

Why does this need claw at me so insistently all the time?! Lurking behind the shadows, waiting to pounce at me and devour me, in this weird tango of me devouring it, but it actually devours me until we are one in the same. I ignore it, and it goes away for awhile, but then comes back rested and so much more interense than before. Over and over and ( Read more... )

I despise every person downstairs (except one) at my house right now. They are all down there laughing and chattering and blah, blah, blah...I just feel like some alien teleported here in their midsts, polite smiles and nods and how do you fucking do, glossing over the fact that I belong elsewhere! Is this karma for something I have done, am doing ( Read more... )

reading the lines as they pass me by
faster than my addled brain and
weary eyes can see.