After all this time I'm still here, and you, you left my life.

Do you still check this? Do you look to see if I write still? Do you check to see if I'm still alive? Would you even know me anymore? I have been though the fire of losing you, and I have emerged so much greater. I am still damned, but now, I no longer fear that fate.

This is where I met you. This is where I fell in love with you. This is where I knew you long before I ever saw you. So how can you ever think someone who "sees" you will ever love you more. I realize how truly foolish I am. Yet for the chance at your love I would be a fool forever.

I loveyou. I love you with every fiber of my being. Every day I think of you at least fifty percent of the time. It takes all my willpower to not call you and text you. Every time you send me a text I die a bit inside cause I want to tell you this again and again. I need you more than life and not having you kills me. Every relationship I've ever ( Read more... )

I think often, if I could ever take one thing back, one moment, one word, one text, which one would I pick? Of late only one comes to mind. Yet how many mistakes could I fix in my life? How many experiences could I make better, or worse? Truly I can't think of any regrets I have, or mistakes I've made that would be worth changing except one. Funny ( Read more... )

Even tho I know no body reads these anymore, ill be posting some writings up. Good thing about insomnia, I write like crazy. Lonliness and late nights, nothing finer to get you creative.

Well its been a while, but I figured what the heck, im up anyways. Been staying up late a lot these days. Good thing I've got music to listen to. Between that and writing.... I've kept busy. Lonliness is creeping up but truthfully that's the fact of my life. Looking forward to an end to winter. And that's about all for now, not like anybody still ( Read more... )

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It's been quite a while since I posted anything on here, been a while since anything in my life seemed relevet enough to warrent it. Lately I've found that there are more possabilities opening up to me. I realize that there is nothing to hold me from anything any more. I can walk away from all that I have now, and it fills me with anticipation. I ( Read more... )

I feel like I've lost my way. That my life now has taken me down a path that is so close to how I should be, but not quite. Is it my imagination or is it the realization that I've missed out on some things that I once took for granted? Why is it that now I feel as if my ability to push myself further in life is hampered by my unwilliness to find ( Read more... )