You know whats wrong with me, I try to live too much in the past. I constantly think over those things I've done or been through, and for what. I'm finally in a great place in life, and because I decided to go forward with my life. The fear that I left something go that I should have held onto is senseless. most of the time I find myself thinking ( Read more... )

I swear it seems like life just goes in circles of good and bad like a fucking timebomb. If it werent for the sheer fact that ive survived the hell that is my life before i'd swallow a 45

The time has come, to put asde my belief that I can escape what I am. I have come full circle once more and have to face what is truth. Simply that while my life has indeed found its missing piece, the other pieces are still there. I know now that what I am is niether light nor dark, simply the perfect balance of the two. Time to take charge of

This day has been one filled with many things which have made me look back, look forward, and look inward. I know that most people who know me will say whats new... well thats just it, there is nothing new about all this, simply its never been said. For all of my efforts to think on other things my mind comes back to one central fact of my life, ( Read more... )

Julia: What did she give you that I couldn't?
Sean: She saw the good in me Juia, she saw the potential, the hope. Every time you look at me I see it in your eyes, the regret. Isn't that true?

Larry: Depressives don't. They want to be unhappy to confirm they're depressed. If they were happy they couldn't be depressed anymore. They'd have to go out ( Read more... )

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Well, it's been awhile since I've posted anything on here, mostly due to the fact that i'm without the internet and somewhat due to the fact that I havent had much chance. I basically fell out of the net. I miss being on here, like the old days, chillin and chatting, especially with my longtime peoples. I miss those especially who I haven't txted ( Read more... )

Well, life's.....life's yeah, life's still kinda the pain in the ass it has been. My only consolation, My Extremely wonderful Girlfriend. My life has found a small measure of peace with her. I have led a crazy bunch of weekend, and weekday romps with her, culminating in massive changes in my personal behavior and outlook. I love her utterly. I ( Read more... )

I am happy, truly happy. I'm finding a renewed sense of suty again in my job and learning to strive for excellence. Best of all, I have the greatest of loves in my life. A woman who so utterly completes me that I'm happy all the freaking time. I like my prospects again, and even though I'm stil a bundle of darkness, I'm also able to see my own ( Read more... )

This past weekend was great. I spent it with my girlfriend and her family, and I had a blast. I don't know why but just thinking about it makes me smile. I've never known this kind of happiness before. This woman has completely flipped my world upside down and shaken it up. I went to church once again, and I'm truly surprised at how much I enjoy ( Read more... )