I'd like to think there was a way up, but right now, I don't see it.

38th birthday, utter distaster. Very few people remembered, family included, to which I shouldn't complain, if I was a better person then surely people would remember. The lack of notice just proves that I'm generally unlikable. Oliver's card said it all. To Mum, from Oliver ( Read more... )

Well, its finally arrived. Moving day. I didn't sleep, and this morning was downright odd, I watched Mike go to work, wanting to reach out and give him a hug, reassure him that we're always going to be friends, after twenty years, I hope to god we can.  Its incredibly bizarre, I love him to pieces, we just don't have what we need to be a married ( Read more... )

Mike asked me to go shopping with him, all I can say is that is the weirdest experience yet. I felt strange watching him buy things for himself and having him basically ignore everything I advised. It was downright odd in Morrisons though, when he was buying groceries for he and Oliver. I felt like I was an outsider looking in. Apparently I was ( Read more... )

House is almost there. I just need to get on with cleaning it, and I'm set to go on friday morning. I'm doing all the washing here, catching up where I can for Mike and Olly. Hopefully, both houses will be clean and comfy for us all at the weekend. I'm wanting to spend as much time with Olly as possible this week, so I'll keep to sorting what I can ( Read more... )

Shared custody isn't going to be easy. We've sorted out after school care, but I intend to be at the house each morning, so Oliver doesn't loose his routine. I've also promised to bring home supper each friday night because its a treat he's gotten used to. I finish at 9.15 and its become a bit of a tradition to bring buggerlugs fish and chips on ( Read more... )

I collected the keys to the house last night. I shouldn't be excited, it somehow seems wrong, but I am. The house doesn't feel like home anymore, when I was at the new place last night, I couldn't help but notice that I feel comfortable there now. Even Mike slipped and said, 'my house', in his head, I've obviously already gone. Its good in a way, ( Read more... )

Well bugger me. I have a house. Went to look at a two bedroomed terraced last night, its newly refurbished, so everything is new for me, and its within my price range, sadly the top end, but its managable.' Its very close to where I work, so that will be great, but its some distance from Oliver's school. I shall have to organise childcare.  The ( Read more... )

I'm becoming a journal addict again, I need to vent, so if you're reading this, tough shit ( Read more... )

I've been in looking after Oliver, watching him play with his friends, cleaning, ironing, washing, and he comes home, does he offer to help by getting dinner on while I finish off the ironing? No, does he hell. Mike sits on his lazy arse playing computer games. So I have to run around like a bloody idiot, trying to get dinner ready, so I can go ( Read more... )