i cannot believe it. i'm OFF probation. all of the sudden. i should've been on until the end of the year.. i haven't even finished my drug program.. this is awesome.

bad news for me. anthony is still coming here for two weeks to work for his dad..but then he's moving back to lompoc to support his sister since her boyfriend left. it's really hard to think that summer will get increasingly difficult with him.. i was hoping we could patch things up and such. oh fucking well. first my dad said to dump him since he ( Read more... )

it's pretty hard to believe june is in three days... time can be such an asshole. the cat is in my room for some strange reason. she's never in here..and yet she's laying by my feet? i'm glad i finally got my smashing pumpkins cds back.. it's funny how i almost stopped listening to them but when i let somebody borrow them, i neeeed them. this ( Read more... )

i'm so angry.....i'm so angry i'm so angry i'm so fucking angry. FUUCCCCKKKKK. i'll probably just end up fuckin crying anyway.. that'll calm me down.

Your day breaks, your mind aches ( Read more... )

I really want another blueberry scented candle ( Read more... )

happy birthday to me... of course i'm in trouble for my birthday but oh well. the weekend was good and i'm glad i was in the desert. most of my family met my boyfriend and like him which makes me happy. i just wanted to tell meself happy birthday and that's it. ^-^

My mother's doing better. She's out of the ICU and she sounded a lot better. How she got all the way in fucking Arizona I still don't really understand though. Hmm.. I'm probably moving soon... to Santa Maria. This is really bad news for me because moving is the last thing I want to do right now. I love it here so much and I'm so comfortable here. ( Read more... )

so, i got this feeling i should call my mom and i did. she's in the hospital which kinda freaked me out. she was also all doped up on medication so i had to talk to somebody else about her condition. i don't know.. the last experience where i saw her in a hospital has definitely scarred me and so when i see her in my mind there, it looks like that ( Read more... )

so... there's this hole in my tongue now right? hehehe.. i like to drool. don't bitch at me, it's already done. i think that's really the only thing new with me as of late.. i am in love again though. ^_^ it's wonderful.. and terrifying. i go to this drug program now.. and get tested three days a week. so i've been one sober camper. i NEED a job. ( Read more... )