Out of school for the summer. Didn't get financial aid, so decided to not go until autumn quarter. I sort of miss it. Interviewed for a promotion at work and will probably train for it after I get certifed in making sandwiches and whatnot. I have never worked for a company where I had to go through so much hassle in order to become a shift ( Read more... )

Not much going on here. Same job, same apartment (now with more dog vomit stains), same old, same old. I hear from my husband a few times a month, he tells me the routes he is taking climbing in case something happens, other than that, we don't talk much. I told him he could file for divorce if he wants, it seems pretty obvious we are not getting ( Read more... )

Wow my life is really pathetic.

Moved into the new apartment today. I am a little out of it, just sad I guess. Cried a lot. My dog is a little nuts, barking a lot. She does love the park behind the place though. The parking sucks. But I can walk to most places and that is a great change from before. I miss John, I really hope that we can work things out. And I miss the kitty.

Yesterday I asked John about the tax return (which was huge) about if he had gotten it. He said yes, I asked if I could have about $3000 from it, to help with the school costs, my new tires, etc. The $3000 is less than a third of the return. He flipped out about how he pays for everything, I don't deserve the money, it isn't fair that I have more ( Read more... )

On Wed. I went to the apt complex to fill out some paperwork. When I got there, they told me that they had another unit open up, corner, 3rd floor, quiet and would be available sooner, so that I could move before classes started and be settled. I was excited. Then when filling out the questionnare, I checked that I am a full time student. Turns out ( Read more... )

I really dislike my life right now. It feels that all my options are not good and I don't know what to do. Options are ( Read more... )

Yesterday on the way to go see I am Number 4, John told me that his mother was coming for a visit on Wednesday and would be here for about a week. She was just here in December and it was horrid, so I am not happy about this. In fact, the first thought that came into my head was "I want a divorce" because well, our marriage blows and I don't want ( Read more... )

I am trying to change myself. I want to be different. I got a glimpse of what my life could be like & I want it so bad. I want a house of laughter & love, a sense of purpose and happiness ( Read more... )

So while things between John and I are really not that bad, I have been thinking more about moving out to Olympia. The reasoning for this being the amount of time I spend in my car and on gas and that I feel a bit lonely and isolated out here. I work full time and weekdays come home right away to let D out. Then it is hard for me to go back out, ( Read more... )