I hate arguing, yet it seems it is all I can do lately. I am so on edge all the time. I am so tense. I feel like I am going insane ( Read more... )

I fasted today. It was pretty easy. Every time I was hungry all I had to do was go into the bathroom and look in the mirror. I hate my body. It is disgusting. I can't wait until I am skinny, thin and beautiful. My Ultimate goal weight is 100 lbs. I almost lost sight of it ( Read more... )

All they ever want is to put you on more Medicine! On more fucking pills!!! They never even want to take the time or effort to figure out what is really going on. It is so frustrating because no one around me understands. My family thinks it is whats best for me. It doesn't matter that they are ruining my life ( Read more... )

I am feeling very tense at the moment. I have been feeling tense since I woke up this morning. It must be because it is that time of the month as of this morning as well. I hope so. I am not diggin' this feeling. I am going to the game tonight. I am dreading/excited for it. I am excited to see the game itself. I mean I loooove baseball. But I am ( Read more... )

I didn't do much today. It was a pretty boring day actually. I sat in bed and watched T.V. I mean I went to class, but when I got home I plopped down and became a lazy ass. I didn't go to the gym today because my medication is wearing me down. It makes me so tired during the day, but at night time I get the most restless sleep. If this keeps up ( Read more... )

This week was a horrible week. I am a fat friendless loser. My epilepsy is getting the best of me. My depression has fully taken over. I have gained 4 lbs. this week and lost all of my self-esteem. I feel like I am slowly crashing and one day soon I will just burn out. I have been trying so hard and EVERY time, something happens to knock me back ( Read more... )

I Have been the fattest pig for the last couple of days. I mean its Wednesday and I havnt fasted since Sunday. I have just been eating myself to death. I feel disgusting. I went to the gym yesterday and today, but it is not enough. I need to start a fast tomorrow. I have been so bad. I will not be surprised if I gain weight on Saturday at Weight ( Read more... )

I didnt eat anything all day yesterday, so today I woke up starving. I went to lunch with my mom later in the day and I had a hamburger with ketchup. I am such a fat ass. I feel so disgusting right now. I dont even have the strength to go to the gym today because of Saturday. I hate myself. I am not going to lose any weight unless I start a fast ( Read more... )

I had 2 seizures yesterday 1 while I was out getting my hair dyed and blow dry (right in the middle of that process). HOW EMBARRASSING. I also had a 2nd one while at the hospital. I kind of remember the second one a little bit. I remember getting an aura and having everyone be like are you OK and say yea yea im ok, but then all of a sudden I couldn ( Read more... )

Ok. so I didn't start my fast yesterday as planned. Oh well. I did start today though. On the night of my sisters b-day (2 days ago) I went out with her and some friends. Well, one of my friends (named henry is insanely hot) hit on me when he was drunk. I didn't do anything with him and told him to go sleep it off because I knew he was so drunk he ( Read more... )