the longest time since i have updated. even looked at this thing ( Read more... )

nothing to say. but nothing to do. what a fucking dilemma. friends are out. not together, but with my boyfriend. dont like it. i cant hang out with my own god damn b/f, so my friends do it for me. arent they sweet. yeah, whatever. i dont understand anybody anymore.

Sarah Gaweda is a pimp. to me at least.

im such a fucking hypocrite. i fucking hate ( Read more... )

i love him, and thank him for what i have, yet i blame him for everything. i barely ever talk to him. hes in my heart though. i know this. i just hope he forgives me for everything ive ever done to hurt him, and let me in. im such a depressed person. everyone sees me as a nobody. i know now that im forever dirt. i dont exist. since i am non- ( Read more... )

i hate you, i hate you, i hate you ( Read more... )

i'll suffer for you...

not feeling to well. same ol bullshit. same ol day. same ol letdowns. same ol depressing mood. same ol reasons. what reasons, you ask? ahh.. good question. none at all!

i think, therefore i am. such a well spoken statement. applies to every aspect of my life.

i know now, that i'm forever DIRT. how depressing.

be a man.

you ( Read more... )

i'll make everyone pay and you will see...

wrecked my car. into some logs. what a great day.

taylors at the beach. til friday. can we say, **miserable**

saw a whole bunch of people i didnt like today. thats okay, i sported off my ride with the system n rims. they loved it. i got many stares, they were prolly thinking to themselves, 'what the fuck ( Read more... )

i feel the minute of decay ( Read more... )

i keep thinking somethings going wrong. i keep slippin back into my condition. i keep wanting to leave it all behind. i keep wanting to run away ( Read more... )

hasnt been going the way i hoped it all would. he hates me, hes going for other girls....at least thats how it feels. we're gonna just end it all soon. i know it. and its my fault. im not affectionate, loving, caring, nice, kind, gentle, generous, anymore....im just a flat out bitch, or so he says. does it really come naturally? have i really ( Read more... )

give me a reason to believe...

bored. nothing much to do. didnt do anything today. it was boring. and it was slow. my mom wouldnt even let me out to fuckin go get some food. what a dick. oh well. i'll be doing something tomorrow. i just got to wait for this bible lady to talk to me at 1 and then im OFF! for 4 hours. how exciting.

not in the mood to ( Read more... )