so things got pretty bad. haven't started paying that 500 dollar gas bill yet. ryan moved out and tyler moved in. then annie moved out no notice because rents cheaper for her to move in with her boyfreind down the road. then i went to talk to john about shit. and kind of dislike him strongly. missed him for a few minutes then realized he realy is ( Read more... )

So. Things Ended with john. the company and almost feeling like i had a boyfreind for a month or so was nice. but hes kind of a dick. and my heart was in the way to realize that i deserve better than that. now im back to the completley single. not seeing anyone. giving up on men life i lead before. things were good for oh.. about a week... went to ( Read more... )

i feel like everything is getting worse and worse. when can i have my happy medium. even just for a week. please? 480 dollar heat bills. mixed emotions. and now ryans moving out too. :( i think im going to make a doctors appointment and see a psychiatrist i need someone to vent to. and not worry about drama and rumors starting. the end.

well. things were going well. for the first month. but now im not so sure. its a confusing mess. usualy its not good when a guy goes from wnting to hang out wiht you almost every day. to ... once in a week. and wanting time alone.

So. its true. i never thought ide ever say this. but i believe ive finaly reached a happy medium. god knows how long it will last. but ill enjoy it and ravish in its light while it exists ( Read more... )

So today was good. Drove up to jamaica plain then went into the city with max. Walked around a bit. Met up with jenn and patched things up. I missed her a little. But still done completley trust her or any of my old friend. No hard feelinds guys. Things are just crazy. Then we met with christopher richard. Whom I haven't seen in like a year. Agreed ( Read more... )

So ive been rather hyper the past couple of days. yesterday i worked until 4:30 and then brought max to the post office. it cost him 52 dollars to send a box back home to the uk with 4 action figures and some sweets in it. gutted. then i made home made baked mac n cheese with cracker crumbs on top for us ryan and tyler, ryans boyfreind. i was SO ( Read more... )

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So before i start... ill say that i probably wont finish this update tonight seein at its already past 11. alot has happened. im nto sure where i left off in my written journal.. but ill start from where i can rememeber ( Read more... )

soo... ive been realy moody lately. i dont knwo if i should go see a shrink. or if its jsut from all the damn stress.. im glad i have good freinds that still love me through my crappy days. they make me smile. <3 kay thats all. oh! filed my taxes! and plannign a roadtrip in april with matty and ry ry <3333 should be soo amazing.. i hope! haha. im ( Read more... )