You look really gorgeous in those pictures that you sent me. I miss you and I love you. You never told me your dad actually lost his job but since he hated it anyway I think it will turn out for the best. Today on the radio I heard an interview with the guy who was second in command of the Iraqi airforce under Saddam. I think he said he started ( Read more... )

Tired, watched ninja scroll with pat and it was cool then I came here and now I'll shall rest. Last night i had a dream that i was being chased by a terrible creature. I ran through Rockwellesque scenes with this behemoth right behind me. i remeber making my last stand on top of a rolling meadow with the evening breeze bending the grass and the ( Read more... )

I too am having a "meditative day" I am really trying to focus myself on certain things. That is, things I am curently doing, like training. I still feel weak and tired all the time but I am consciously maintaining a positive attitude. In my life's experience with my emotions effects on my body has been dwelling in sadness builds nothing. When ( Read more... )

My head is swimming, a sickness invades my body just as I start a class that runs 9 hours a day. This is gonna be a long week. I worked out so hard I threw up yesterday, so...........yeah I'm pretty proud about that its the first time thats happened. I don't have the inspiration to elaborate on my inner thoughts right now.

I am on the til end of a long drive back from Florida with my father. We went down for just a couple days to help my grandmother move. Actually, Florida is really nice but a couple days with my grandmother is all I can take she is so stubborn and old-fashioned that talking to her is like talking to a brick wall. Just for my own amusement I try to ( Read more... )

Do not be fooled into to thinking you have freedom of choice in anything everything we have is selcted for us based on its compatability with waht the system is trying to feed us. Republican or Democrat? They are two sides of the same coin flipped by a group of hands with only one interest in mind.........themselves. Think, how can they tell you ( Read more... )

Everything always seems to spin out of control only to wobble slowly back into place just before you can figure out what's wrong. I would give anything for telepathy, everything for empathy, goodbye to apathy I care to much now. Nothing but endless avenues every where you turn, wondering what happen's when you take your next step? Will you fall ( Read more... )

Pondering the notion that somewhere out ther absolutely nothing exists. Can this be possble? Something has to fill nothing absolute nothinf cannot be and yet we have a symbol for it does having a symbol make it something though? Everyone whomay read this stop looking at your stupid screen close your blind eyes and picture nothing. Can you? ( Read more... )

Those who are truly happy are like leaves being blown in the wind. Carelessly floating through the air waiting for the next gust of life to spin them around. Never sitting, never stagnant, if they are still it is with purpose. They see all unclouded but do not dwell on any idea or notion, save their own wayward travels. The majority of our ( Read more... )

Anja is back! yaaaaaaaay