Now is the time for me to rise to my feet, wipe your spit from my face , wipe these tears from my eyes

-Hatebreed-

This verse gave me the strength in the past to fight the world may it grant any who want to listen the strenght to fight the world in the future.

So as my knowledge of string theory grows so do the questions spawned by the reailization of it. When I read the articles on the Nova websites I can understand alot of what they are saying but I feel the need to now take quantum mechanics and physics so I can fully understand all of it. I suck at math though, like really bad, so it will take some ( Read more... )

Sometimes the emotions I try to keep locked away spill from me unrestrained and I know the anguish swirls behind my eyes it is all I can do to stop from exploding sometimes. I find its always hard to say the right things because they always come out wrong and then I feel as if I've offended. A reason to care gives me a reason to use them but I'm ( Read more... )

I am in NH of all places at Anja's house. This si going to be a lame entry because I can't think of anything to write.......well that's not exactly true I can think of lots of things I want to say but I just don't feel like typing right now for some reason. I like Anja's family and I'm glad I came down, her dad is frigging cool.

I have always been afraid to love where I am and who I am with because I fear that I will always lose that when I become to complacent. Such is my situation now everyday I used to walk back from the CLL and look over the tiny campus that had become my temporary home and I felt glad to be there and yet I always felt that it wouldn't last. Now, as ( Read more... )

I just did it again I spend a half hour writing something and forgot to reset the date. I am so pissed off right now but here's a quick recap of what I was supposed to have written ( Read more... )

I hope this works

Christmas day has come to a close and the wee morning hours approach us in the night. Today was basically just like any other day at home. I hate the static attitude of life hear and I look forward to the new semester at school. I always feel guilty when I'm home like I will never be the person they wanted me to be but in the end I guess that ( Read more... )

My mother is so callous, it is too cold upstairsa for my animals and I brought them into the living room. I came back and their unplugged cages were piled on top of one another at the bottom of the stairs. I tried to explain to her the necessity of warmth but she just doesn't care about any form of life except her own. I swear if she didn't feel ( Read more... )

I am amazed at the slowness of my computer dial up connections should be abolished ( Read more... )