We're 
guna 
make 
it
after
all...

I'm crazy in love with him.  I can handle it. I love him...

Ok, could someone explain to me and teach me what you are supposed to do when the one who makes you happy - and the one who you talk to about something, the one who hugs you when you are upset and is always there... is 300 miles away?

What if everyone is right...

I hope they aren't. 

Wow, its been a long time sense i've updated.  I actually forgot about this thing. Lol. Oh well ( Read more... )

So - I definatly had another attack.  This time though, i talked to Lisa, and I'm going to go to the Doctor probably next week.  She'll then tell me whether or not I need meds *probably wont take them - so it would just be a waste of money anyway* anyhow... i'm going to go see her and tell her everything that needs to be said and see what she ( Read more... )

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So, I think I'm going to ask my step mom to schedule me an appointment with our doctor and talk to her about having  a mild case of bi-polar.  I think thats what i'm getting.  I mean, all day today, ive been in such a great, awesome mood - and now all of a sudden i'm completely depressed.  Go figure.  I had a few more of the "panic attacks" or the ( Read more... )

I am all worked up and I don't even know why.  I feel like shit.  I feel like i did the other day when i couldn't look at food, my mouth was all watery, i was all scared and shaking and paranoid and everything. I don't know what to do. I hate this.  Im crying for no reason. Im shaking and i can't stop. I dont know what is wrong with me.  This is ( Read more... )

So, after I updated I felt a lot better.  I stopped thinking about that matter and moved on.  I feel better about it now ( Read more... )

I have a lot on my mind. 
About one main subject in particular.  However, I'm thinking about a lot.

First of all, I didn't get to go move in with my mom like I hoped...but I'm going for the summer and I guess we'll go from there.  I don't know. Its once whole confusing situation and Im all a mess with it.  Truthfully I don't want to talk about it.

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So, I guess its safe to say its been a while sense ive updated. A LOT has happened ( Read more... )