I got it!!!! Maybe.

[cogitoergobum]

I've been reading Jungian interpretations of EDs. I'm a skeptic in general but I think it's interesting how I've had so many of the dreams described by other ED patients. Since forever. This page is worth a read as an intro.
I also was also forced to engage my brain when I read back something I'd written in my offline journal: It's not enough to

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[carriemeaway]

I completely agree that it's not enough to want to recover. I do believe that some of us are almost destined to develop anorexia; sad but true. Though as flickad said, you can channel it differently. I think there are many obsessive perfectionists/people who may be predisposed to developing an ED, but they had (perhaps) different life experiences, or maybe just simply a more positive outlook or something. I think it can all boil down to circumstances and experiences. For me, some of my childhood memories still haunt me and, I know for sure, contribute to my illness today.

Anyway, that's a long reply...

[cogitoergobum]

I often wonder if I'd led a different life would I still be eating disordered? I really don't know. And do I have to reconcile myself to my past to move on or is it more a fear of the future that motivates me to restrict.Either way, I'm so over feeling guilty for not 'doing recovery right'.

[carriemeaway]

Yeah, it's futile to play the "what if", or, "if only" game.

[notxdeadxyet]

Hey lady.
"The Craft" was on tonight, made me think of you and your icon and all.
Hope the night is treating you well, and a belated Happy Solstice.
*******HUGS*******

[cogitoergobum]

Happy solstice to you too :)
My boyfriend is a wiccan and as usual, we forgot all about it!