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A very primal, deep-seated thing
I believe that the anorexic condition is a very primal and deep-seated thing. Our current culture is obsessed with the physical and our bodily appearance and so we couch anorexia as a “slimmers disease” (awful phrase) and even anorexics themselves think they want to be thin because our society values thinness. In a more religious age, it was less a ( Read more... ) -
An update
Well, the first six months of 2011 were not good for me.
I fucked over my life in an entirely new way - Agoraphobia! At first I would panic if I had to walk down certain streets. Then I couldn't go more than 500 meters from my house. Then I couldn't answer the phone or the door. Even to people I knew.
And as you can imagine not being able to talk to ( Read more... ) -
lost dog
Happy belated new year, LJ ( Read more... ) -
Just checking in
I've not been posting much over the xmas holiday, I've not been restricting much either. I'd like to apologise but I don't think anyone but me is too bothered. For now, however, I'd love to share a dull animated video with you wonderful folks.
Stick with it to the end and it's worth hearing. Like the article on cracked "5 ways stores use science to ( Read more... ) -
I got it!!!! Maybe.
I've been reading Jungian interpretations of EDs. I'm a skeptic in general but I think it's interesting how I've had so many of the dreams described by other ED patients. Since forever. This page is worth a read as an intro.
I also was also forced to engage my brain when I read back something I'd written in my offline journal: It's not enough to ( Read more... ) -
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On Friday I ate a normal amount of food, socially. Normal for a normal person, not normal for me that is. It was a total carb-fest and there was alcohol. Oh well. I can do that once in a while without freaking out too much. I still feel guilty though, hence using LJ as my confessional. Today I've had a yoghurt and 2 bowls of cereal. It's always ( Read more... ) -
Nostalgia
Shock horror - I've been spending money. Just went and blew $1.99 on a new LJ user head because it's Rene Magritte and that's all the reason I needed. I've also been feeding my 90's obsession buying old magazines on ebay, if I turn up anything scannable I'll post it here. Then I got sidetracked looking at 90's hairstyles. I love hairstyle models, ( Read more... ) -
My anaconda don't want none
OK, was going to go to the docs today but realised my appointment is next monday. Derp.
Retrieved my coat from lost property, paid off my rent and walked all over finishing my xmas shopping was doing good then decided I was allowed a small skinny latte for lunch plus my veggies for dinner....got home and the BF had cooked quorn chilli and cous cous ( Read more... ) -
I'd thank them if they werent so shit
I don't want to jinx it buuuut: I just got a call from the jobcentre and it looks like my new claim for benefits has finally been ok'd and they're going to pay me. And they're working on my backdated claim. I've had no income since July (JULY!) so you can imagine what a shitty existance I've had. I won't get a lot of money but it'll help me pay off ( Read more... ) -
So tired.
Cue the House references, I think I have lupus.
I've been getting a malar rash on my face on and off for a couple of years now, which comes with a bright red rash on my body. I also have periods where I'm to tired to get up or do anything with fever, mouth ulcers and sore joints. I don't want to go to the doctors and say "hey, I think I have ( Read more... )
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