I just don't care anymore ( Read more... )

There still is a very small, very stubborn part of myself that won't let go of all the angst, pain, rage, despair, lonelyness, and overall madness I've ever felt.

I just have to let go.

I can't be the person that I want to be until I can let that all go.

I just have to let go.

I've been fooling myself.

I've been so focused on all the different variables that can be invovled in meeting and dating girls that I'm not meeting any girls.

I must have concentration, but I need to clear my mind so my thoughts don't lead me wrong.

this is more difficult then I gave it credit for.

I'm back from santa rosa ( Read more... )

My encounter at the bar last night spawned all of this ( Read more... )

Jesus, sometimes I can be so smart and sometimes I can be so stupid.

This morning I had a dream about my life.
In the dream, I remembered all the different girls I've dated and what I did to mess that up. In each situation, it was clear that I had always done something (subconciously) to end any connection I felt.

I woke up crying.
I've ( Read more... )

Mind stopped in past thoughts
Action and thought together
Time flows through all thingsI don't know how to explain it, but I've been feeling out of touch since I moved down here and I couldn't understand why. I spent the last few days thinking and talking with travis, and I don't have any specific answers but I have an idea on where to start ( Read more... )

Winter wind howls past
Feeling alone on cold night
Alone and emptyI feel like shit ( Read more... )

Sun shines in blue sky
Morning unrolls its promise
Today will be great

My reality
Centered in my universe
People fly past meBah ( Read more... )

Two steps forward, one step back ( Read more... )