It's just this feeling that I'm doing something wrong. Today was fun but at the same time I felt so out of plapce. It's looking like there are clicks here too and I'm just the weird outsider again. And it feels like he's pushing me away. Even sexually he's not even there half the time. Idk......... I'm lost..... I don't even know how to bring it ( Read more... )

i am a broken writer, my ink is low, but my paper never runs out, life is my canvis,my memories paint my world ( Read more... )

i have been sick the past week and yes i still am! i am losing my voice, wich i am kinda happy about because its an exscuse not to talk to people while at either of my jobs. my birthday is in 5 days i will be 24..its amaizing how time flys. and we get older and change. but still are that little child inside. this year has been a fucked up year. i ( Read more... )

recently i have just been bored with my life.....i wonder if i made the right decisions with moving in here... i came so far its to late to turn around now i guess...im just ready for bigger n better things....i have put up with so much shit...i came along way with myself. and now i just feel stuck...i need more.i need somone i can be rough with, ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder why i even bother with human relationships, i think i should just stick to working 2 jobs and never see anyone...maybe then things would be easyer....sometimes i just want to be alone. and never deal with anyone. other times i want to have babys....i confuse myself..........

cant i just be like all the other losers out there and change my name and move away?? would that fix anything?? just ffor a ittle bit i supose....i just to be like super man, moving so fast i could make time rewind by going backwords around the earth until it rotates the oposit way and takes time back with it.

i pray that the music will eat me ( Read more... )

i close my eyes and all i see is a young boy in a metal cage with dark cordiroy pants on and a black and white stripped shirt kicking and screaming to get let out and Shaking the cage . then some other guy shows up with black dress pants and a ruffly white dress shirt and a whip or some sort of extended object and hits the cage and tells him to be ( Read more... )

i feel i have so much to say but no way to say it.
if i could reach out and touch you, and you could feel what i feel, and see what i see inside my minds eye. i would never have to speak again.

i took a deep breath and sighed as i went to sleep, i was so tired ( Read more... )