Well..it's been years since I wrote last and while my abilities may have diminished, i'm still gonna give it a go ( Read more... )

Being myself was possibly the hardest thing I ever did....its something that a lot of people never try to be. But its also the thing I'm most proud of: the fact that I'm real. And some people may not like me, sometimes I might seem odd or confusing to them. Atleast they can always count on the fact that I'm being honest.

So in a few months Im going to begin work as a drug counselor for teenagers. My work will involve taking them out hiking and camping, and you may say "Well, Buddy, don't you yourself have a drug problem?" and I would just smile and say "Nothing lasts forever. Somethings change ( Read more... )

The path we follow to our desires is fucking lonh & lonely....and often the path to reach our goals is what makes us not go on towards our dreams. I have rearranged my life and changed so much so that I could have the life I want...but as I go towards my ideals, I find myself in a place that is so far removed from where I'm going it seems like the ( Read more... )

Long time since I last wrote..since then I've been fighting an epic battle. The battle for my soul. I guess I just came to a point in my life where I decided I needed to go on some sort of "vision quest" and stop believing in lies, especially all the lies about myself. 'Cause I'm really a spiritual being trapped in a material body..and for too long ( Read more... )

So you try to live your life the way you want...and try to stick to your values and stand up for what you believe in. Because well, thats who you are.... But then when you think people would/will/should be happy for you for making what you want out of your life, they go and tell you that your dramatic and put yourself into the dramatic situations ( Read more... )

It's rare to find someone you want to exist with. Not just love, fuck, live, hang out, etc. with...but EXIST with...Someone you want to grow and change with and just see what this whole living thing is about in their company. And for me, the rarity of said situation is equal to the difficulty I have in accepting that I want to exist with another ( Read more... )

Fuck drugs. I'm sick of using and I'm sick of watching the people around me get destroyed by using. I've felt this way for awhile...but lately i've just noticed that more n more of my friends are become fucking pathetic losers hopelessly devoting their lives to drugs....and I know I can't save them, but I refuse to continue heading towards rock ( Read more... )

Well...I think its time to go somewhere else. I'm about to lose my job, which is really all thats been keeping me here. Which is a lame excuse to stay somewhere you despise, I know that. And which is an especially lame course of action for me to take (if you know me, you'd know sticking with shit I hate isn't like me at all) But where to go? ( Read more... )

...My faith must not be worth much. 'Cause everything I put my faith in seems to just let me down...hmmm...