I know I just started this journal, but I'm ending it now. I started this while I was using cocaine & I'm finished with that now. If you want to find me:
www.deadjournal.com/~pretty__pistol

I will still use this to check my friends list & comment.
Love you all.

I don't know if it's safe for me to be this happy. I have not been this content with a relationship in a really long time. Any time he's around, it's *smile, smile, smile, smile.* I'm floating.

Yeah. There's a lot of drugs around here. Drugs are just part of life- pleasure, business, they bring you up and take you down, they make you feel good. They take you to another planet, sometimes. Sometimes you have to find your own way back.I know what you're thinking. You're thinking... O-oh, she's a junkie, she's only been away from home six ( Read more... )

Dearest Brittney,
Yeah, I think you proved my point pretty fucking well tonight.

I have a friend, he is made mostly of pain. He wakes up, drives to work ( Read more... )

The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts. My head is a carousel of pictures. The spinning never stops. I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader. Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush, started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was, but came to my senses. Now I'm tryin ( Read more... )

I wish I was better at putting my thoughts into words and letting them flow out of my mouth. I feel like I could sit here through almost anything and not say a fucking word about how I feel.

Meh. Open me up. Spill out my insides.

I'm dry.

This fucking sucks. I swear if I have to stay in this house much longer I'm going to go insane. I should move out tonight. I am actually thinking about it... but Renea has to talk to her mom first. Her mom won't be home for this whole week though. I wonder what she'd say if I asked her if I could move in right now. Hah.

I fucking want out.

Every
creature
on
this
earth
dies
ALONE.

So... I finally told him I want to be w/him today after lunch.
We're going out now.
He kissed me before I left school.
It was cute. =)
I smiled all the way home.
I'm happy.