Each word puts this hole through me. Like with every syllable you utter I'll fill up with air, collapse, and forget how to breathe. I guess thats the only way I can describe this.

Summer has gotten off to a weird start.

a. no more coke
b. move out asap
c. be completely free of this over-emcompassing heaviness

I'll figure it all out someday.

Can't sleep ( Read more... )

On binges to make the world stop. Or just to pass the time. Its springtime so I can find some excuse. Wake up in a daze. Getting home the next morning is always the worst. Its like this entire city knows exactly where I spend these nights. Dont look anyone in the eye. Existing is exactly what you don't want. Try to sleep it all off. But the only ( Read more... )

I have no idea where to begin ( Read more... )

I feel like this is it ( Read more... )

Spent the weekend in Kansas City. Wandering streets unknown. Drinking with friends I don't see nearly enough. Walking drunk back to the apartment. I pass out. I wake up and there is a boy next to me. He has his arm around my waist. Skin to skin. I admit I am disgusted. Really, my heart just belongs to someone else. The noises keep me awake. Im ( Read more... )

Everyone is alseep. I stayed up to watch the sun rise. Its strange to be in familiar places but with a sudden overwhelming feeling that everything is ending hanging over. My best friend is moving hundreds of miles away from me. In two days. I really don't know how to take this.

So this is how it goes ( Read more... )

I'm quitting my job. I'm running away. From everything. Revolution summer. We will prove to be nothing less. Change my mind about everything as we move forward. I'm in love with the idea. I'm in love with a place. I have no ideals or morals and I am completely lost. This city is gorgeous in the summer. Let's just forget it all. Drink with you. ( Read more... )

I've been spending these nights with people I've grown to love/hate. We are stuck in familiarity. Calls from friends you haven't seen in months. Its Saturday night. Lets pretend this is two years ago and we have not put these walls between us. Walk through the party. There are too many familiar faces here for my liking. I feel everyone is staring ( Read more... )