Am currently travelling round europe...should feel great but just can't shake this sadness.

I have an exam on Monday which i so far have done absolutely minimum work, i don't technically have to pass it but don't really want to have to face the fact i failed an exam i was only required to get 40% on to pass! It's British politics and mindnumbing, i meant to do more revision today but ended up going out last night and getting too drunk and ( Read more... )

I never ever write on here, still a little prone to writing on TOD if anywhere at all. Silly really as its the place that haunts me with all my teenage woes...maybe its about time to make the move.
Today i felt utterly awful but now i look at it in a different light, the low came to give me the high...
Read 'The Time Travellers Wife'

I really cannot wait for Christmas holidays now, things here are getting quite tiresome and i need a break. It's going to be so weird to be around Tim full time again, nothing has really been resolved and neither of us has really accepted it as far as i can tell, we are both burying our heads in the sand and pretending nothing is going on. It still ( Read more... )

I feel that as i am at home sitting in my old room with nothing or very little to keep me occupied i should take the time to write something in here. So much has changed since i last wrote in here, me and tim are officially over, 28 months and all i have to show for it is the fact that i have to pretend now to be happy single and have to start all ( Read more... )

It actually feels like my heart is breaking. I am so used to being the one calling all the shots and now he's done it to me. He said he would always be there for me and that the best feeling in the world for him was seeing me happy or with a smile on my face, i am not smiling now. In fact i find myself constantly fighting back the tears. I just ( Read more... )

I'm feeling strangely meloncholy tonight. Just got back from seeing Alfie at the cinema and it has sent me into a spiralling depression. I miss Tim and i know he loves me, i really do, i know he would never ever hurt me but also i know that maybe there's more out there...and maybe i'm making the biggest mistake of my life trapping myself now. I am ( Read more... )

I am really enjoying Leeds now, it's good fun. I have been out too much and not worked enough but have attempted to make some sort of headway today. Written my first piece of assessed work today which is scary, it goes towards my end of year grade, i know i only have to get 40% but it's still scary!!

I am going to see the Zutons tonight with Trish ( Read more... )

I guess i've kind of neglected this thing after camp. I went off travelling up the west coast it was absolutely amazing i went to San Francisco, Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Yosemite, San Diego, Grand Canyon, Lake Havasu...and i'm sure other places inbetween. It was a seriously crazy two weeks, i met some fantastic people and i wish i could sum it up in ( Read more... )

I curse myself for not documenting this time, i am having potentially one of the most lifechanging experiences i will ever have and neglecting to record everything thats happening. I can feel myself changing day by day, my confidence growing and i feel like i am finally becoming independent.

I miss Tim so much right now, he hasn't emailed for  a ( Read more... )