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i no longer eat.
my body is  not hungry
and doesnt want to eat.
except when I am high.
i do not eat all day until Im high.
then I eat lots and make up for all the calories i didnt eat earlier in the day.
so it totally evens out.
My body has finally adjusted to compensate for my uncontrollable case of the munchies.
The world can rest safe now.
All is well.

I sometimes feel like writing things in here.
I thought I did just now...
But i dont have the energy to write anything of significance really.
I need sleep.
Im tired of this feeling.
Im tired of a lot of things.
Im tired of not feeling.
Im tired.
I dont know.
Nope.
The end.

I am so bored.
I never write in here really because nothing ever really changes about my life or how i feel.
I feel exhausted right now.
my ankle is sore and elbow scraped from a monday night.
drunken cartwheel. nuff said.
Meredith and I are pretty much dating.
At least according to her father.
Her and I actually have a wonderful sexless marriage as of ( Read more... )

ive still got so many questions.
I still wonder so many things everyday.
I still dont understand much of anything.
Im losing my mind.

Please let me in on your secret.
Please tell me how this all seems so easy for you.
Because I just cant do this anymore :'(

I think im really tired of pretending to be happy.
I feel like its so much work to pretend im ok.
im not happy or ok and really nothing has gotten any better for me.
Nothing has gotten any easier.
I just found things to cover it all up.
Its getting exhausting.
I dont know what else to do.
I dont want to cry anymore.
I dont want to deal with any of this.
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It used to be me you came home too...

:(

...this blows alot

fuck ( Read more... )

I lost the rest of my blunt.

Im going to kill myself now.
Bye.

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