as expected, there are good days and bad days. today was a bad day ( Read more... )

the saddest sounds i've ever heard were those of my grandfather's sobs when he told me she passed this morning.

and i want to be mad at my dad for telling me to pull it together. because i don't want to pull it together. i want to crawl under my covers and just lose it until there's no tears left in my body. because really. honestly this isn't ( Read more... )

i just returned home from an emergency trip to florida. my grandmother is very ill and it's just, well, it sucks. but it's heartwrenching and absolutely numbing too. i consider myself a fairly rational person. i know that death is inevitable, but i just could not stop feeling so empty all weekend and just hating this situation ( Read more... )

brokeback mountain was absolutely the most beautiful film i have ever seen.

emotions are funny.
hilarious even.

the semester just ended.
i can't wait for the next one to begin so i have something to distract me from myself.

all i want for christmas is peace of mind.

RIP john spencer

you will be missed.

sometimes i wish i could erase everything that's happened to me and just start over ( Read more... )

tonight was amazing ( Read more... )

i am tired. and it's all my fault. whine!

during my weaker moments, i feel as though i do not belong here.
but then i realize i do, but i get distracted too easily. and i need to work on that ( Read more... )

there are a few people in my life who can, with very few words, make me feel like the smallest, most insignificant person alive ( Read more... )