I know I haven't written here in a really long time. I just read through this entire journal, searching for I'm not even sure what. Hell, I don't even remember half the things that happened here. It doesn't matter because I didn't find anything. But you know, I want to keep this around just for the mere fact that it's my memories, you know? I like ( Read more... )

Everyone always asks me, "What's wrong?"

I wish I could pinpoint it for them, let it out somehow but inside my head I'm thinking, "Is anything ever rightIt's not even an issue of being lonely anymore. I don't take my friends for granted, nor the relationship that I've developed with Greg. And I hate the way I feel... like somehow, none of it is ( Read more... )

I wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this ( Read more... )

Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms ( Read more... )

Hanging on to this one last thread... I have no control. I am afraid... Who keeps cutting the threads? Do I do it myself? Will I simply float away into nothingness?

"Isn't the first step toward love the passion, the second the longing?" - Heart of the Sea by Nora Roberts

"Ohhh Courey! Don't worry! We're gonna go to Canada! Run away and never look back! Ohhh Courrreeeey! You'll be with Greg! And I'll be in some closet with a lot of sex tooooooyysss!!! Heyyyy Courreeeyyy!! Beeeee Happppyyyyy!! I loooooooooooooooooooovve yooooooooooooou! Hey!"

Here's something for you to know. If all goes as I hope it does, I'd love you forever. Im sure of it. If I do give myself to you it'll be for good. You could destroy me then if you wanted to, you know? I've never truely loved anyone on in this world before, and you'd have my total trust/faith/support/devotion/love up until the very second you ( Read more... )

Tommy's moving to Florida. Think of how much better I'll feel with a whole bunch of states in between us. Actually I'll feel like shit because I still don't know the truth about anything. Oh well. I want my underwear back. I always do that though. I did it to Andy. After we broke up I asked to get a whole bunch of my stuff back. *shrug* It was mine ( Read more... )

Slightly happier today, and that's saying a lot. I saw Nessa and all the Ramsey people yesterday. I'm staying with Ness for Thanksgiving.

WHERE IS GREG???!!! Lol, I had a dream about him last night and I've been thinking about him a lot lately. I can't help it. ^_^

So this is going to be a short entry...