I really don't understand you, one day you're telling me that you're jealous of my guy friends in Austin when I go to visit, scared that I'm doing something with them when you care for me. One day you're crying behind your bed because you think I'm dieing of a head wound in your living room after the shower fiasco. One day I'm thinking that things ( Read more... )

It's weird how it'll start up, just in one second. I'll be fine, minding my own little bit of business and something will bring it to mind. It's been something a friend has said, a song randomly playing on the radio, a dream that lasted too long and went just a little too far, something that prompts a memory and makes it linger and sting just a ( Read more... )

This is simply version one, it will likely be edited a number of times and you shall never know it, whether to save myself or keep things moving smoothly if they do finally begin moving once more ( Read more... )

mmm, seeing that boy makes me way too happy.
I wanna see him again.
now to wait for saturday.*scaredexcited*

I'm sitting and thinking of all these things that I want to say to you, but either think or know I can't, so I had to put them somewhere so I could remember them for a time when it might be possible ( Read more... )

It's been like a whole 6 months since the last time I posted on here, and I'm not sure if I miss it so much anymore. It wasn't read all that often and I really can't say my old thoughts are all that interesting anyway, so what was the point? Venting, and I think I might venture back and do so every once in a while ( Read more... )

Colorguard camp is kicking my ass, omigod! I wish I made drill team, really, because we have four classes in a day, two spinning and two dance, of course my favorites are the two dance classes, one which has just a bit more technique and the other which is for 'fun' in which we've done jazz walks and these really silly combo sort of things, all ( Read more... )

whee! so I had my first recital, and I didn't totally spaz, whoot! But I need to smile more, foo. My dad says he thought I should've been Carabosse(evil fairy), that he thought it was the perfect part for me. I laughed and agreed, because truthfully, I'd been thinking it for a while, but I wasn't going to say anything, that'd be extremely rude, ( Read more... )

So, I think I might actually be becoming more fit. My calves hurt, and I love it. The fact that they hurt two days after the last time I danced makes it all the better, it means I worked hard. I've taken up drinking green tea, like three bottles a day. That's how I'm quitting soda, I figure it'll help get in better shape, or atleast look it. It has ( Read more... )

does anyone ever feel like they're not good enough? Like, they want to be this and this and this, and they simply can't be, will never be? don't you ever feel like you have absolutely no potential, even for the most pathetic, ridiculous, least important thing ( Read more... )