the hard part about life is:

if you really want something, you see it even if it isn't there.

"Look, there's three things you have to worry about with people ( Read more... )

Fidelity

I'm saving myself

for myself

What I guess I want is some place where the things I like and understand aren't confronted with ( Read more... )

wow... which I think is why I love nature... you can be in it, and appreciate it any way you feel, as long as you take care of it, and it will always be there, and it will always be doing its own thing, and it will always be constant, with exactly the right kind of variation.

I hate the scene so much. I feel as much of a failure and a reject when I hang out there as when I compare myself with the normies. Emotions especially. People and their criteria for acceptance. It's so easy to let them predict you in completely the wrong way. No one understands the need for wide open spaces and interpersonal longing. They're ( Read more... )

Last night was crazy. Erin's birthday party, awkward family gathering as per usual. Then I hurried over to HH to watch Johnboy. His guitar was really out of tune but he sang well. He said he just put new strings on it that day. Overall it was good. John and I left to go get WINE. Then Jes Kramer, who sounded like the Moldy Peaches, played and ( Read more... )

I dreamed that I was Zhuge Liang!

This morning, I dreamed that I was performing on a small, old school auditorium stage with a bunch of other amateur/bedroom musicians. The tune was swaggering and jangly, and in a Mike Ness voice I was singing ( Read more... )

Last night, I dreamt that I went back to MTU and one of my friends from I-House was transgendered. She had a mustache and a man's name, and I was supposed to guess who it was, but I couldn't and I felt bad. The mustache came from watching the finale of That 70's Show, where the stoner guy (ha! I never learned his name! fcuk you, TV!) freaks out ( Read more... )