I woke up filled with hate this morning. I usually try to work my way around feelings of hatred, because pretty much every system of spirituality in the world says to, but my attempts seem to have only suppressed the feelings and not resolved their origins. I wonder, though. I was playing Knights of the Old Republic again recently, and I felt ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get the feeling that I am turning into a basically malevolent presence ( Read more... )

I am too tired to write, but I will. Anyway. The other day, we went to the animal shelter and I saw a cat that I would like to get. He's 6-ish, has fucked up pug ears (from fighting), mutant toes, and meows like Edward G. Robinson. His shelter name is Bagle; if I got him he would be called Dracula. I hope they keep him around long enough for me ( Read more... )

We found some awesome shit in the dumpster last night ( Read more... )

A lot of things suddenly seem really trivial, yet that's fine. I found an awesome women's trenchcoat in the dumpster last night. And a lot of Disney records. I'm ok. Are you? I make enough money to get by, I haven't been electrocuted in a while, I don't miss any particular emotions that I'm not experiencing right now. Nobody can hold me down ( Read more... )

Life doesn't begin and end with one friend. Or anyone. Is it right that getting online helped me remember that? I get carried away too quickly and then I strand myself when it comes to interpersonal relationships. I want results quickly! Detailed and accurate feedback! Confirmed dependancy! Nose to the grindstone, now, here we go! There are ( Read more... )

There will probably be a keg and there will be a downtempo/hip hop DJ. Our crazy roommate moved out, so there probably won't be any darma. Or drama.

Jesus knew he had to be crucified, but even he waited for someone else do it for him: Don't nail yourself to any cross, even if God told you it would save the world ( Read more... )

I'm tired of blocking myself out for reasons that don't exist in real life.

I spent a lot of time thinking about stuff yesterday; I had the first taste of willing group-centric socialization in a while. This is a placeholder entry, since I have to go to class.

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