Im completely worn out. I think that I am dying, if not physically, then emotionally. Cause I cant stop thinking about the future an trying toa ct on it now, im just wearing myself out. I think way too much, I need to stop analyzing about where I am and just be happy about it, but I worry about Chris' and Joshs' happiness first, So its just a big ( Read more... )

Hmmm...updating, Im feeling that way agin, The way I felt when I ended up in Valle Vista ( Read more... )

And I dont wanna care how much I hurt you anymore.

X-mas is soon yay, im excited, but low on money, but its ok cause I wanna make everyone happy.

Em...Me Without You show on Friday...should be fun..Im hoping that it will be ok..well I dont wanna see her fucking face...and I dont wanna see him be sad...cause thats not fun at all...not at all...my hair is getting way too long ( Read more... )

Please give youself what you and I both know you deserve...And leave me in my misery.

* I dont blame you for the volume of your voice, on the car ride home, my fingers were numb and my feet were cold, I still pushed you to feel this way, Its not your fault that I couldent hold this in, I shouldve done what you said. Next time ill try harder to not et you see the hurt flowing through me and Ill make things seem much better than they ( Read more... )

hmmm...Im yet to tell Josh of the ideas that floated into my head today. But hell know as soon as he comes and takes me off to his house ( Read more... )

wow I havent updated in forever! The every time i die concert was AMAZING! Rusty/mal I expected to see you there!...hmmm...well Ok so Keith (lead of ETID!) laid his head on my chest while he was screaiming! and i smelled his hair..I WAS CURIOUS! meh oh well, and well uh...I have a new job and I actually get money now!...and uh well...Me and Joshua ( Read more... )

hmmm...ok so this weekend ( Read more... )

a little inside info on how childish my EX is ( Read more... )