Mom just gave me my keys back. Only to and from work though...which is fine. I understand it's all about baby steps...she said: 2 weeks is enough...whatever. I'm seeing "Dr. Glick" on Tues. I'm kinda excited....I need to talk to Jess and I miss Linds like fuckin crazy!!! There's not much to say other than i need a job and i need one fast....hmmm ( Read more... )

Can you say DRAMA!! damn! this week has been hell! not going there right now.
I'm having issues. I know what i need to do with my home life. I'm just SO afraid that i'm never gonna talk to linds again. I know it's all about fate and i know that that's what really matters and everything. i just want reassurance. i'm so insecure right now and i'm ( Read more... )

I have such bad senior-itis!!! I'm such a slacker. Instead of being smart and starting a 500-1000 word paper that is due TOMORROW yesterday, i wait until today....For one, I'm tired as all hell and my mind is definitely not on this paper. We have to describe a typical day at our school...well, how the hell can i do that if i don't fuckin pay any ( Read more... )

Wow, long time no write in this thing...or at least detailed thoughts...i think i'm gonna start using this more often now.  maybe..we'll see.

So I talked to Linds about what happened the other night and it didn't seem like she cared too much so at this point I'm like: hey, fuck you..but keep my number in case you need a booty call ;) cuz I'm ( Read more... )

All I need to do with the next few months is stay positive and know that i have a best friend by my side. I'm so happy i have amy back- it's too wonderful!!! Jess will always be mine and i know that even though I'm not talking to her and everything that she's still thinking about me...why? because she calls me. At this point in my life I need to ( Read more... )

So..mom blew up at me last night b/c i think she definitely has agknowleged that i'm a lesbian and stuff...she even had enough nerve to call me a dyke...fuckin fabulous. whatever.

but today made up for it!!! Linds text messaged me at like 8:30 saying she was at my car..i was like: umm.....oookaayyy..lol. i had no clue why she was there and she ( Read more... )

so i called jess tonight and i asked her if she was sleeping....THEN i hear someone say: shhh..it's okay, i can pretend like i'm not here.     RIGHT bitch...i'm smarter than that. i don't get why i'm so upset. i mean, i'm with linds but i love her so fucking much still and i can't imagine her being with anybody else but me. I don't even know if i'm ( Read more... )

I had a fabulous time last night! It wasn't perfect but it sure was great! We were both really tired/not talkative but it was cool. We went to dinner, then to I, Robot. I highly recommend it. I don't know if I liked it because it really was a good movie or if i liked it because of who i was with. Either way it was good.

I'm going to RENT bitches ( Read more... )

I think I've forgotten what it's like to feel loved. I understand Jess loved me a lot but it was different. All I could do was HEAR love not FEEL it. Sometimes it needs to be felt to really understand it's there. I still love her and I was thinking about her a lot today. I know she needs to go on with her life and see where it's taking her. I'm ( Read more... )

So my step-dad is driving me fucking insane!! Maybe it's because I miss my dad and what not. Maybe it's because of Jess telling me what happened with her dad it's making me think of what happened with mine. I'm still not sure. But the 26th of July is when my dad passed and that day is coming up really fucking fast. I'm not gonna like it either. We' ( Read more... )