I feel like I can't move on because of my held back emotions. I know that is what's making me so depressed lately, but I don't feel letting go of them will help at all... I will still feel the same way, whether I let go or not... there is no closure, only emptiness... I don't want to let go, but I will have to, my dreams will eventually die... This ( Read more... )

I feel like I have lost myself... I don't know where the old me is... I am always thinking about things I shouldn't be thinking about... I obsess over conversations that will never happen, making sure if it ever did happen I know exactly how it would go... I feel the deep need to be loved by someone unconditionally for no reason at all, except that ( Read more... )

I feel so worthless and stupid and unwanted... Someone today told me the reason I am not with anyone is because I come across as a desperate whore... Because the person who told me this could wear sweatpants and a tshirt w/ holes in it, and men would flock to her, and if I look my damn best, I can't get anyone to look twice at me... So I'm a ( Read more... )

Okay, important things I've learned this week ( Read more... )

So I got my second job today... kinda... I went for the interview, and she basically said after training I would start. So now I work at Food Lion too! But that's cool, I need 2 jobs. I feel a little better about myself now... I think it's just a mood thing, because I have wierd moods, but what woman doesn't! I was kinda interested in a guy I work ( Read more... )

Lately I feel like I have a "defective" label, which makes me sad. I don't want anything to do with my usual friends, and I don't want to go out. I feel like there's something wrong with me, internally as well as visually... What the hell is wrong with me? I feel let down by certain ppl, and I feel like I shouldn't have to deal with that, and all ( Read more... )

Maybe it's time to relax by yourself. You've got some deep thinking to do, and maybe you've been trotting yourself out in the world a bit too much for your own good.

Last nite *around 12*, me and my friend Jennipher drove around and hung out, went to Waffle House, then stayed at her house until we fell alseep... This morning, my sister beeps me on the phone and wants to know where I'm at, why I didn't leave a note, why I didn't tell anybody, and that she's worried sick... I had switched phones before I left, ( Read more... )

Okay, so I didn't get to go to the fair yet as planned... I also didn't get to get drunk w/ my friend Eric this weekend... grrrr.... oh well. The weekend isn't completely over yet. Maybe he'll come over later. I got my hair done, and I've fixed it, and I really like it. I never knew I would look so good w/ curls. Everyone tells me I should get ( Read more... )