I should really make constructive use of this, or abandon it altogether. It's just another thing in my life I've half-assed, and will likely just leave to die. Sometimes I feel like my life is so amazingly light, it would be nice to be grounded for once...

I feel like I have all this stuff pent up inside me, but no way of releasing it. I need something or someone to turn on the faucet and let it all out, whatever it is. I really need that to happen.

It still doesn't feel real ( Read more... )

I'm in fucking Amsterdam. I HAVE NO BUSINESS BEING IN AMSTERDAM. I told myself I wasn't going to smoke up the first night... I did. And it was fucking awesome. I've met a bunch of cool people, and I keep meeting more. I haven' taken enough pictures, but I'll definitely be getting on that. The Dutch are so cool, and the ones I've talked to ( Read more... )

I wanna go swimming in a lake ( Read more... )

I hurt ( Read more... )

Lately I've been having dreams I don't want to wake up from. I start my day disappointed, and it doesn't usually improve from there. I'm sort of slipping into unhappiness, and I'm not sure where I went wrong. Maybe it's just that I didn't go right ( Read more... )

I have ignored my journal for way too long, but it doesn't surprise me. I have all sorts of nasty habits that alienate me from everyone else ( Read more... )

I have been unexcusably lax in updating as of late, and for this i apologize. my computer got hacked and it's running slow and shit, not too pleased about that ( Read more... )

I just finished reading the book 1984 and it's left me in a pensive mood. I'll share a passage towards the end of it for you ( Read more... )