a few things i forgot last night....

i'm in love. and that makes it rather shitty timing for moving across the state. it should be interesting, though - we're both very open to whatever possibilities make the most sense. we've also recently established a poly relationship, which is new to me. i'm learning a lot.

in the month of July, i went to a ( Read more... )

the other day i heard the Beatles' all you need is love at just the right time. there's nothing you can do that can't be done...nothing you can sing that can't be sung...no way you can be that isn't the way you're meant to be...it's easy! all you need is love......  :D

life is pretty incredible right now. i move to Boston in two weeks, and begin ( Read more... )

well lawdy lawd!! i'm all moved out! as of last night, i'm floatin free & livin out of boxes! it's a wonderful feeling. there were so many various stresses going into all this, and more just seemed to pop up as i went along. i spent all day yesterday dealing with all kinds of unexpected delights (written sarcasm here)!

merlin (my kitty) is now ( Read more... )

so i'm moving out of my apartment this weekend. holy shit there's still so much to do.

can someone PLEASE take my cat?? this is getting dire.

last night i had the longest orgasm ever, by far. it was delicious.

mmmm...that is all.

for the record, that was a relaxed, contented sigh, not a shriek....

last weekend i went to Playa del Fuego. it is a local burning event, basically a 4-day party in the same vein as Burning Man. around 600 souls. it was awesome.

there was so much to see and experience, so much sensory stimulation...which definitely helped the candyflipping on ( Read more... )

now i detox. though just between weekends, nothing serious. but it does require an altered awareness of what i take into my body. things i've taken for granted. sugar, dairy, coffee, beer, weed...plus the psilocybin from the weekend.

there are words and concepts that arise in relation to my weekend adventures. it's impossible to really describe ( Read more... )

tonight we spend apart - the first in almost two months. he said he was tired, well before i could sleep, so ok. and yet...i feel there was something else in his voice. is he thinking about it too - the inevitable change - ? laura suggested a weaning process...i'm mixed about the idea but it's not a bad one.

i kind of feel like i'm in denial for ( Read more... )

( responding to julie )

i still don't know how to talk about my emotions when i'm not ok with something. and yet i must. and i'm trying to rationalize every possible outcome, convincing myself ahead of time that it'll be ok whatever happens. which it will, but i don't feel that way now because i'm all in my head. and that tends to get a bit circular sometimes.

i'm ( Read more... )