last night i felt a wall come down. or at least begin to crumble. we became one, breathing into each other, and coming through the mutual Self. i am awed. i am humbled. i want more.

go rent The Corporation. it's worth the 2 hours ( Read more... )

...since i last posted here. life feels kind of like a crazy fun whirlwind right now...

i'm getting closer & closer to school, to the concrete continuation of this wild lucid dream. and yet, i can't quite find the reality of it. so far it's mostly all just paperwork and numbers. i'm sure it'll start creeping in around the edges, though. i'm going ( Read more... )

today was one of those that i wish i could have skipped. i felt torn in eight hundred pieces at every moment, answering questions all day long, barely a moment of peace to myself. and this was a day where i could have used it.

it's funny, being the person who's in charge of everything. who's solid. what happens when i have a not-so-solid day?? ( Read more... )

what a day. an event called the Whole Health Expo took place here in Northampton today (and will be tomorrow), and our office had a big booth there. i worked from 1-7:30, almost incessantly. We were offering free on-site spinal screenings, and then we'd schedule people for a full evaluation after determining that they were fucked up & need ( Read more... )

where to begin.....it's been a while since i've put anything up here. let's just say i've been, um, distracted. and i ain't complaining. i've been shirking my personal responsibilities a little, and i know i need to come back to center, so to speak, so i can continue to get shit done.

had a dream last night about running on pavement in bare feet. ( Read more... )

well la ti da. life's pretty groovy at the moment. i'm eating massaman curry (thai) and it's delicious. it's actually almost orgasmic. almost.

so many things are happening. this must be the springtime energy, wafting slowly from below the hard frozen surface. catching like fever to those with ear close to the ground.

i had a fantastic weekend, ( Read more... )

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vertigo is something other than the fear of falling. it is the voice of the emptiness below us, which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves.

i had so much to say before i got here. before i made a connection. i feel (sort of silly-like) as if i've found a missing link. actually as if i've ( Read more... )

no instructor showed up for my glass class today. stood outside in the cold for about 20 minutes, went around and found the side door unlocked, went in and got my beads from last week. hung around for a few minutes, debating on the potential arrival of the teacher with some of the other people, then decided to head. it was a bit disappointing.

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