Sometimes life just throws shit your way all at once and says, "Imma fuck this bitch up!"
Major personal and medical issues, all around a shitty week.
I have cried at least once every day this week.
Having issues coping.

How many times do you have to say something before it becomes truth?

Catch me I'm falling
Please hear me calling
Catch me I'm falling for good

Catch me I'm falling
Losing myself in the air
Catch me I'm Falling
Don't leave me crawling
Catch me and show me you care

Crisis averted....for now

I know I only come here to bitch anymore, but just needed to throw out there that since most of my friends are/were Josh's friends first, I can't go to them about relationship stuff without him finding out.  He has this great support system he can pull out of his ass at any point in time, where as when I need someone to lean on, a shoulder to cry ( Read more... )

I miss my friends

Something is chemically imbalanced in my brain, I can feel it. I don't feel wanted/loved.  Was told to chill the fuck out.  Sorry.  I'll stop.

Long time no see, and still nothing huge to update about. I still work at McDonald's and they are closer to making me a manager, which scares the shit out of me. I think I could handle a management position at like a small-ish retail store, but food service is too damn overwhelming.

I'm still in the hunt for another job. I'll occasionally have a ( Read more... )

I need to get out of McDs, ASAP. I hit myself for the first time in about six months today, and it was bad. I might have bruises on the sides of my head. I don't know how I'm going to tell Josh. Last time I did something like this he didn't take it well, and I'm afraid of what will happen this time. I don't want to lose him.

I'm going to miss Borders, but to be fair I'm loving the sale. 11 books = 101.24 ( Read more... )

Aside from the birthday where my favorite uncle died that day before it, yesterday was possible my worst birthday ever. I won't go into all the details, but to name a few ( Read more... )