okay to anyone I know in Pittsburgh. My birthday party is at 80's night on 2/17/2005. Sorry for the late notice I know I suck.

Okay so I haven't posted anything in awhile. and uh. that's not gonna change cause I'm goin crazy right now and can't write in this thingy for long without ending up all distracted and uh, yah bye me.

Okay so I'm back in Pittsburgh now. I never ended up getting a conection, so don't feel like I've been ignoring anyone. I just have not had the internet juice pumping into my veins. but that's kinda changed now. I can acess the internet, albeit dial up. So will be posting more frequently than never. And yah, everything sucks, and lifes dumber than ( Read more... )

Still no permenant connection, but hey at least I got online. I live in Maryland now. So if you ever want to find me. Ask someone who knows or something. Blah

Laters

And just to remind you. I've always known this. But dammnit. I will fucking die screaming. Kicking and beating. I will have what it is I have found to die for, for it will be the reason I have found to live. I will fucking die screaming.

well I'm back online, fired once, got a new job. and life stays the same. just better.

Okay, so it's back to work tomorrow, I hope everything will be okay, most things tend to be but I never put sanctity on that. We shall see how things turn out and hope they turn out for the best. i miss my old life. I wonder where it went.

Okay so I moved to a different part of Oakland. Pretty good so far except I'm sick and need to get a doctors note to return back to work. I feel like such a wase.

on another note. I need a code for a friend, if anyone has a LJ code they don't need I'd be much appreciative.

perhaps the blindness if fading. this job hurts me true, but other things are lifting. Memory of a Dream? I was that, then I fell. But I shall rise again. I must. I will see again or burn out my eyes in spite. their so ugly anyway, what they see and what they show. So very ugly. Just like the rest of me. So human, so flawed, but in that their is ( Read more... )

I am humble, and I know not why. i just know that it is better than the other choice. But my self-esteem is quite lacking, and is this because I am overly humble. intresting, at least I'm not an asshole. At least I hope not. Fuck it, time to make an ulcer with alcohol and guilt. Yummy.