okay life,

i am already dedicating my whole life and existence to nurture and build amazing little beings for our future.

ease up already.

okay?

love,
the management.

 i found out about this woman through my "poo a day" calendar.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Mallon


her legacy is what brought on the "employees must wash hands before returning to work" policy!!!

her typhoid diseased hands infected 50 people... 3 died.   woah!

"Mallon was born in 1869 in County Tyrone, Ireland (now Northern Ireland), and emigrated to the ( Read more... )

 i roamed the streets feeling like a mangy alley cat today. puffy eyed, oversized sweatshirt, dirty skinned and with no real destination in mind.

school is hard. i need to take "clear my mind" walks more often.

 grad school is def a trip.   it's been really hard for me to get back into school mode. not to mention all the work is incredibly overwhelming. so i've been a big ball of stress.

but i'm REALLY enjoying what i'm learning. i find it all incredibly interesting. which means i'm pointing in the right direction, correct?

the only thing that is weird is ( Read more... )

 i give in, life!!!

after years and years and years and years of saying "children? psshhttt i never want those things!"  i have finally caved in.

i want kids. that's all there is to it. i'm a good candidate for a mother figure. i want to create little punk rock anarchist babies. (or jocks that like sports... which would be totally and completely fine ( Read more... )

 there's a bug on my  neck
and it's tiny feeler legs are stuck in my sweat
and i'm feeling horribly that he is drowning in me
and that he took away a piece of me
and i want to peel him away
fighting the urge to slap him gone
his tiny antlers search for an escape
and there is a tiny bug on my neck
and he's okay
cause he took a little piece of me
and he is ( Read more... )

 there have been some really huge gigantic black flies flying around my apartment. like... more than a handful and i keep having flash backs about the slanty shanty.

remember when our basement was infested with black flies and we had to get fly tape.. and the fly tape filled up in 5 minutes of being down there. and then they bug bombed the basement ( Read more... )

 so, perhaps it has something to do with the fact my birthday is in 1 hour but i am in such a good place right now (who knows where i'll be tomorrow)

but i am in the healthiest and happiest place i've been in a long time. in every respect. obviously there are things that happen in a day that will shit on me for a slight moment but in the grand ( Read more... )

 i got stoned the other night with mike and traveled to the desert. 
i was walking in a caravan
on a peak in a sand mountain
i zoomed the camera over the camels
and the men
and beards.

then a mirage in the distance
with an airy mist around it
(what i thought was an oasis)
was really a city.
and i was in a middle eastern club

with purple lights and belly ( Read more... )

 i had a really great weekend in ogunquit, maine. i think i'm feeling okay about falling into a relationship again.

i saw grafitti in a bathroom stall that said "i kiss in your mouth"
the sentence structure and the subject made me loudly laugh really hard.

i am now blowing up balloons and attaching sparkles to tin foil pasties.

jacques show tomorrow ( Read more... )