but even so, i guess i feel better putting stuff on paper, or in writing rather, for future reference ( Read more... )

can you simultaneously will a phone to ring and not ring? i certainly want it to ring, more than i thought i would actually, more than i ever have before. However, not ringing would prove to me, a point, and a big one at that, which i've secretly been hoping would be disproven for years...if that makes sense. such a sticky sticky situation ( Read more... )

wtf...seriously

driving out to oklahoma. be back next week.

It’s the silence that kills ( Read more... )

so unbelievably frustrated. and nothing i can do about it. and everything is just tearing me up. i've talked to other people, but it doesn't help. i need to talk to him. i need him to listen. for once.

back to normal around here...so thats good

barely....

we're still not speaking

i have to turn back to this crazy online journal that no one reads because i don't have anyone to talk to. my boyfriend has convinced himself that everytime he talks, we fight. so he has resigned himself to not speak to me. we live together, which presents quite a problem considering i'm sitting approximately 4 feet from him as i have been for the ( Read more... )