and nowhere to go but deeper inside

I don't think I am making this up, but if I am, then I've really lost it. The thought of being unable to decipher truth from lies scares me to death. I'd always thought that if I was good at anything, it was being able to call bullshit.

(-) My right arm is tingling. This happens a lot. I've gotta get that blood work tomorrow. bruises. fatigue. headaches. Something just doesn't feel ok ( Read more... )

 why do I always give more than I receive in a relationship? Always. And If I don't, then I feel like I am not being true to my nature. 

 Me? I'm gonna live forever. 

One of many things that has been going through my mind lately ( Read more... )

no i don't know how to hold you without shaking
no i'm not aware of how i could possibly love you without aching.

...
gotta watch myself
i've gotta love myself
and take care

Well i don't need anybody
'cause I learned to be alone
anywhere, anywhere I'm gonna lay my head
I'm gonna call my home

wish i could tell myself this and believe it. 

 It could be the good life.

... and now,

I want to buy plane tickets!

 Am I a mean girl?