So me and the B are on again... sigh. I totally dig him! I'm not feeling very much like myself lately... yuck and I keep being reminded of people and things from my past and it depresses me how small and cruel some people are. Whatever. I have my degree. Check. My apartment rocks. Check. My job is boring but pays bank. Check. I live in ( Read more... )

I miss him more than I can put into words. The weirdness of waking up alone has worn off but I kind of miss feeling surprised that he's not here. I miss stability and being sure of him and us. I still love him so much. I hate missing him, I hate that our myspace profiles say "single". I thought I didn't want to do long distance but this is ( Read more... )

I miss him sooooo much. I feel lost and confused. I just wish the timing had been different... why does timing have to be off when EVERYTHING else is soooo on?

so... I'm an idiot and I completely overreacted. Sigh. And now I trust him.

I've resigned myself to the fact that we are no longer in eachother's lives. That phone calls will go unreturned, birthdays be celebrated seperately, crisises will be dealt with alone, inside jokes will be forgotten, borrowed items and money will be pushed to the back of our memories and closets and our friendship will fade. I try to pretend that ( Read more... )

It's like I took a good long look at my life and thought, "Wow, this looks really good! I'm really happy... maybe I should take a big shit on it!" I hate myself right now and I cry like every fifteen minutes. I am trying to hold it together but I think I'm overcompensating for the fact that I feel like someone ripped my heart out and filled the ( Read more... )

So, after a few days of man-hating, I am back to my old self... e.i. loving being single. It always takes me a bit after I get fucked over to get back into the swing of things. I mean really, this break-up slash post break-up drama lasted longer than the damn relationship!!! Plus it just soooooo wasn't worth all this shit. Sorry dude, I said it, ( Read more... )

And by hard I mean impossible. I keep getting royally dicked by every guy I have any sort of encounter with... Andy, Will, and Chris are excluded of course! But seriously, is nothing sacred?! Is no promise worth keeping does everything have to be put on public display?! I fucking hate men!!!!

"You humiliated me, you humiliated yourself and you made a mockery of what little we had ( Read more... )

so three months is a good run right? single again... relationship tornado, hit me hard... shit.