So I tripped and fell in a relationship... a really good relationship, like great... mmmm. But things are too good and I'm starting to get paranoid... note to self- Do not get crazy. I'm having the three week crisis, Ellen says it's normal and to ride it out and "Keep celebrating each other"... Ellen's probably right, damn hippies.

Let me preface this entry with the information that I am drunk and dressed like an emo kid....

Why am I so easy to give up?
Why don't they miss me?
Why don't I stay in their minds and haunt their thoughts the way they do mine?
Have I gone from funny crazy to full out insane?
Why? Why is it just now so real... in technicolor and 3D?

I spent the weekend in St. Louis; my hometown. I often forget that, while I stopped calling SLU home at age 8, how much history I have there. Dozens of cousins and second cousins and my parents old friends that can remember when I was "this tall". Crazy women loaded down with diamonds that could salvage whole countries and enough botox/valium to ( Read more... )

1. Have you ever been drunk? Define "been ( Read more... )

I bet it makes you laugh ( Read more... )

Kyle's getting married. Huh. I find this extremely amusing. I really want an annoucement, but I don't think he has my address. Damn.

Joyous that I won't be sharing a trailer with him,
Anna

I think I spelt akward wrong... maybe twice. So apparently it's fun to read my journal to create drama but never to disperse it. I wish the person who read my journal and jumped to conclusions would spread the word that I wasn't talking about someone that I have never met and never wished any harm upon. I wish I was the type that could be mean ( Read more... )

Assumptions are interesting beasts... they can make us happy, sad and even irate out of something trifling... I think I'm done, nope I know I'm done. Odd how it all started with an assumption, became messy with an assumption and then ended with a couple of assumptions just thrown in for good measure. I've decided that assumptions are the ( Read more... )

I would like to apologize to anyone I offended in my last entry... the woman I had a little run in with was not from Lewiston and I am sure none of you have met her. If I have caused anyone any distress I really apologize. The other girls that auditioned were very talented and one was inparticularly good and seemed to know a lot of people there, ( Read more... )

I gave in to my temptation.
Pressure and quick wrist.
Why is it the physicalization of my weakness...
is the only thing that makes me feel strong?
A physical sign that I am out of control...
suddenly gives me a handle.
And nobody knows.
My secret and my lonelyness are
my company.