I feel so stupid. I need to learn to ask questions and then take the answers in stride. I wish I could just figure things out. It makes me so upset and I can't tell people I can't explain my disappointment. I wish people would do things according to my values and I know that it's ridiculous to expect that of people especially when things that have ( Read more... )

I'm currently doing calculus. Okay well I'm actually taking a short break from it to write this but there is a good reason. It's getting very irritating. I don't own a solutions manual so I can't just look and see how to solve these difficult problems. I'm sure that there is some simple solution that I'm just not seeing. That's always how math is ( Read more... )

Lately, I've been sick. I wake up every morning with a terrible cough and a stuffy head. I'm still tired and I don't want to go to class or do anything productive. The minute something happens to someone I care about though I become the most restless person alive. All I can think about is trying to help them. I wonder constantly if there's anything ( Read more... )

So right now I'm pretty upset. I think it's easy to see. I hate it when things are going really well and then for some reason I do something that makes me feel really bad/stupid. I hate it when it's especially obvious too like it was tonight ( Read more... )

So I guess it's been a while since I've written in here. Unfortunately a lot has happened to me since my last entry and the chances of me actually getting it all down correctly here is very unlikely. For Christmas we went to Oregon to see my aunt, for my birthday I had a blast with family and friends, for new years I celebrated, and now classes ( Read more... )

So I'm not really feeling well lately. I think I'm coming down with another cold. It really sucks actually. Other than that though life is pretty wonderful. I have my good days and my bad but still I make it all work. There are lots of people who are making my days better and better. Well I guess I'll talk to you guys later. Have a wonderful

SOOOOO Many questions. What is going on with the world? What is going on with me? I don't know. I have too many questions and comments and no words to use to ask them. I don't know who to ask my questions of. I'm going crazy or maybe I already am crazy. All of the above. This is the most pointless entry I've ever written. So so so so so so so..... ( Read more... )

So besides the fact that nearly everything in my life is currently perfect and the semester is almost over which means that my birthday and christmas are near everything is so great. I'm happy almost all the time now. All smiles. Wonder why I'm so happy...well you probably already know ( Read more... )

So yeah just so that it is known that I haven't fallen off the face of the planet here I am posting something very random ( Read more... )

So in a sentence here are my current feelings : scared, worried, nervous, annoyed, lonely, pounding, fluttery, crazy, insane, intense, unnerved ( Read more... )