i need to vent. i tried several methods of venting and trying to move past it. but sometimes people just won't let things go, i guess i am being that way with this post but whatever. my future sister-in-law and i are fighting. which is fine because she can be a difficult person. what upsets me is that she is driving a wedge between me and my ( Read more... )

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Carmen ( Read more... )

I had to say good bye to my cat today. I'm still so sad. I couldn't afford to get her the surgery she needed. I can't believe she is gone. What a shit year this is turning out to be. I don't want any more sad/bad things to happen. I need a break.

I am totally in love with the new Radiohead album. I think it is the best thing I have heard in awhile. Last album I fell in love with was the Killers's Sam's Town. God I love Brandon Flowers. Anyways, all I have been doing for the last week is school work (aka reading until my eyes bleed), listening to this album and watching hockey. I am a ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a sad day. We went to have Thanksgiving dinner at my uncle Ed's in-laws. We've known them since we were kids but haven't seen them in years. Well, we were pulling into the driveway there was a large group of people standing on the side of the road. It turns out while they were having a family game of lacrosse Bernie left the field ( Read more... )

55 random questions ( Read more... )

Someone I know has died. He committed suicide nearly a month ago. He was a beautiful human being; smart, funny, kind, understanding, sympathetic, intelligent, creative, and nice. I am sad because he is gone. It is so tragic how he died, no one could help him. I haven't seen him in awhile, I was living up north. I am full of regret. Regret ( Read more... )

another lazy entry, this one comes from sudbury. i am currently visiting here for a few days, not sure when i am going to make it home. i've been away for awhile now, it feels like it's been forever. i miss my cat. junior is with me and enjoying his summer vacation. we haven't been doing much lately. just eating and visiting family. life is ( Read more... )

a lazy journal entry will fall from my fingers. i cannot promise that it will be good. i can promise that it will be trite. everything feels trite but i am not depressed. i just feel like it doesn't matter and one day it all will. i feel as i am taking steps towards what i want my life to be. this is just the....precursor to something better ( Read more... )

I am feeling sleep deprieved, for the first time in a long time. I don't like this feeling, it is like a permanent sketch. And when I do finally sleep I have weird and twisted dreams. Last night I dreamt of my far away crush. I tried to declare that crush over and done with, but I think I was lying to myself. I do that sometimes, it's a self ( Read more... )