i have made a lot of mistakes in my day. the greatest and most painful ones of all were when i hesitated and did not act. 'what if?' is my least favorite question.

so i had a creative surge and wrote two poems. the first is sort of depressing - it's about loneliness. it's quite rough and i'm not totally sold on any of it. the second is a nostalgic ditty, and also a bit rough around the edges. comments/suggestions are much appreciated.

"the right side of the bed"

this twin bed is not big enough for us two ( Read more... )

i'm so deep in arts administration at the moment that i am starting to lose my sense of the "arts" aspect of it. i want to be in a theater. to smell the stale, sweaty air of backstage. to feel the cold rehearsal room floor, the warmth and brightness of the lights ( Read more... )

Dr. Moore ( Read more... )

email correspondence #8 with my SIP internship contact...don't worry if you don't understand it all, i've bolded the important bits...

Hey Naseem ( Read more... )

how could a day that had so much promise take a single turn, with a single glance, and end up so shitty?

in other, semi-related news: my mood is being weird as of late. please accept my apologies for any future outbursts, bitching, crying, cold-shoulders, or any other general irrational emotions. i'm kind of hating people these days.

There are times, such as this evening, when my father bestows upon me precious pearls of wisdom ( Read more... )

i keep seeing people around me grow up. friends are getting jobs, going to grad school or getting married. sometimes, all three. i feel like many people my age have parts of their lives figured out. i know next to nothing about mine or where i am headed. post-college life eludes me. i don't know what i want. four years at k feels like nothing, and ( Read more... )

Chris, in reference to Elliot's previously snarky comment: "Naseem, why are you dating a philosopher, again?"

I see Elliot glance at me, but my brain is screaming, DO NOT MAKE EYE CONTACT!!

Me, nonchalant: "Hmm? What?"

Elliot, stern and matter-of-factly: "We aren't dating."

Uncomfortably long pause

Chris: Oh.. I know. Just being a chatch.

Me ( Read more... )

"a self audit"

it's one of those nights where i am on the floor ( Read more... )