I've prabably always been a little too introspective for my own good. I don't consider myself a selfish person but I realize that I spend maybe too much time picking out my personal flaws. And maybe that makes me selfish. hmm... sort of on a straight line of consistent feelings. Just kind of here sometimes, not really accomplishing anything in ( Read more... )

My sister just found out that she is pregnant with a boy!!!
I'm just imagining the fun toys i can get for him when he gets older...
I can't wait for this kid to get born. About 4 and a half more months...

-Become a better friend
-call people back
-be more decisive
-lose 10 pounds
-quit bitching
-read more
-get active
-lose 10 fucking pounds

My sister is pregnant

I'm really tired of expecting one thing and getting another. I'm also tired of people expecting something of me that I cannot deliver. Maybe I'm tired of caring too much about how other people see me. I wish I could just be myself and not care at all. Such a simple concept but its something I haven't gotten close to lately. I want to enjoy myself, ( Read more... )

Life, you are a naughty little bastard. You must be spanked ( Read more... )

Today mom, Sue and I went out for the day. We went to some small shops in Lewiston and then up to Amherst to eat and go to Premier. It was nice and mom was so happy and relieved to get out of the house, and that makes me feel good. None of us got much of anything though. I have 2 days in a row off and I am elated. It's the first time I've had 2 ( Read more... )

This is the most emotional time of my life so far. I feel so lost and I have no idea what I'm doing and I feel like everyone is so far away and I'm so far inside of myself. I feel like this feeling is never going to go away. I feel trapped in it. I know I have a lot to be grateful for, I just feel like something is missing and I can't put my finger ( Read more... )

Some days I am in this mood or state of being where I just cannot find contentment. It seems that there is nothing I can do to make myself feel good. I realize that it's part of a bigger problem and I wouldn't have these difficulties if I didn't take my life so seriously. I wish I could find a way not to take it seriously. I wish I knew where to ( Read more... )