hey kids. I just cashed my minscule paycheck and ate a huge sub and feel sluggish. I have to go back to school for one class in about 15 minutes so i thought i would do a nice brief update. I feel pretty good at the moment. I'm glad it's friday and I don't have to work tonight. I'm supposed to see Sin City with Damir tonight if all goes right. The ( Read more... )

Lately I've been on this laundry binge. I want to wash everything and got rid of 2 huge bags of clothes. I bought new detergent and a downy ball and this fantastic vanilla lavender fabric softener. Oh baby. I've been in a kind of "fuck you world" mood the past week or so...I am beyond confused about life. Not just my life but life in general. I'm ( Read more... )

Spring is right around the corner. It will stop snowing and being cold in exactly 17 days. No more no less ( Read more... )

My uncle has been staying with my family for a few weeks now until he can find a place to live. It's interesting having another person live in my house. People should come and live with me for a few weeks at a time. Be my guests for awhile just to see what it would be like. I'll take care of you and make the occasional meal. Otherwise you are free ( Read more... )

had my one class this morning from 8:00-9:15...My teacher is hysterical. He makes us laugh so much. It's a good thing he's a teacher for a class that early in the morning...i don't think theres any other way i could remain coherent. As I was walking out of class I saw that my friend Jason from Wegmans was there! I talked to him for awhile and ( Read more... )

I've been having a lot of moments of clarity lately. I'm not completely sure what I can attribute this to other than the fact that I've been learning a lot about myself. And accepting some of what I'm learning. The ultimate goal...to accept everything. School's been pretty average, I've already begun a pattern of slacking ( Read more... )

Getting back into routine. Not much has changed since I left and I have to say that in many ways it's very good to be back. I'm really not looking forward to returning to school. Last semester was a bad one for me. Work is pretty much the same-not bad. I got to leave an hour and a half early tonight. Which is aok with me. Although, now I'm not ( Read more... )

Icky, grey. My christmas shopping is officially complete ( Read more... )

It's December! At work they play all Christmas music all the time. That started at the end of November though...I have completed almost all of my Christmas shopping. I still have a few more things to get and have spent more money on Christmas than I ever have in my life. I have learned the true beauty of shopping on-line! It is way too fun and easy ( Read more... )

I am anxious as usual. Will this ever stop? I don't want to be responsible for my life. I mean I don't know what I want to do yet and I'm sacred to death of failing or being unsuccessful. Not just being unsuccessful, but being alone as well. I can't seem to put myself out there. I'm kind of afraid, kind of always afraid. I hate this. My mind doesn' ( Read more... )