i laughed hard at myself ( Read more... )

i said this time would be different but it didnt feel like it ( Read more... )

I saw an awesome movie yesterday. It was very inspiring. I think I want to live in europe for awhile. Something. I don’t want to live and die in a society that will never reach its full potential. One that is depressing. One that doesn’t realize what life is worth or even what it is all about. I used to hate it. I used to think there was nothing ( Read more... )

me and jason hit 1 year. its amazing how time flies. it doesnt seem that long, not even when we look back. i am sure going to miss him. so much ( Read more... )

I feel extremely sad for her. I dont even know what to do. To suffer a loss as great as that is very traumatic. I dont know if i could handle it. But from what I feel, I beleive that she is in a greater place now. one where her spirit is shining so bright. enlightened. and at peace. i wish the best for her. for her family. its always a shame when ( Read more... )

i had to post in here because i had a lot to say. somewhat. and im here at work all day ( Read more... )

last night i made a fabulous dinner if i do say so myself. i wasnt sure what i was going to do yesterday but jason wanted to hang out and watch movies and stuff so i cooked. chicken parmesan strips on top of penne pasta with meat sauce. mmmm. it was good eatin ( Read more... )

after reading her response, the first feelings were anger. i didnt know why but i was angry. i sat on it for a bit and then i realized what am i doing? why is this so difficult? why is it so difficult to say what i really wanted to say. i think for awhile i was afraid. afraid to change my opinions of her because here she is seen as one way. and i ( Read more... )

so today was a great day. jason emailed me and his words lifted my already high spirits. i have just been feeling real great lately, which is awesome because i still have my moments of weakness. my moments where i dont care to try and things are fuzzy. but acknowledging what im going through helps ( Read more... )

today me and jason have been going out for eleven months. its insane but i smile just thinking of us. lately i had been feeling wierd. ive been emotional lately. ive had a lot on my plate i guess. this was taking its toll on my relationship. sometimes i just feel like such a sad person compared to jason. i feel like i bring him down sometimes. but ( Read more... )